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One’s Blog should be about content, one’s thought should be pure and directed. Yet, in this cruel existence we still worry about the packaging, we scramble for looks. We don’t care if we damage the goods, if we loose the essence or worse… It seems so easy to miss the point, to get tangled in the world of needs, each as if a steel bar, welded into your soul, requiring the looks to meet “the” vision. It never is our vision, it is defiantly close. Same, yet so much different and the worse part about it, you never feel like you can match it.
I wrote months ago, I wrote a lot and I wrote daily. I lost the sense the integrity of clear thought. I though that if I changed the box, fix the wrapping paper and apply just enough tape, the thing that got broken will be whole again. I got lost in the same web I have been fighting to avoid.
Purpose of this blog is to let me speak my peace, to let out that which has been boiling over for over two decades. I’m here to write. Explain and attempt to clear my head. I used to bounce ideas of my friends, but most of the lost the ability to see. Their blindness became a blessing as though they could turn their eyes away from the problems of this world. I feel the urge, the need, the calling to … and thus I write.
I do not draft my entries and I rarely re-write what has been written. I try, hard, to choose my words carefully, but most are soaked with emotions. It is a dirty business, survival that is. The rules are not clear and the only thing that keeps you in the game is this imaginary score you need to settle, approach, reach or acknowledge. I’m tire of scores, of lies behind the numbers. I want to start at page one, I want to start with clean sleet. I want to start and not worry about looking back. I want to write my journey as I see it happen. I want to live to smile, I want to get this version right…